Monday, August 24, 2009
It all comes to a stand still now.. Everything's done and now is time. The days of endless pursing of contentment, happiness, surprise and waiting for someone.. Stripped of dignity, pride, selflessness, commitment, priority and giving.. I lay myself out. Did the best i can ever possibly do.. As i always tried. Ignoring all the nags from all round.. It all matters for a second. And then, i know.. Struck by the ever heavy weight of inferiority, judgement, jealousy, bitterness and longing. i hide it.. The posture, actions, conversations and comparity. I see it..
My mind hit by many rebounds.. Speeding through the island, to get as much happy-saving tokens. And i admit, a few sticks and half bottle to accompany me was just enough.. for one night.
It's not my stage now, no more fairy tale princess, tiaras, glass slippers and her face. It's what the best awaits.. Letting go.