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Well, i dont feel quite great.. Just so tired. Somehow something is lacking.. It's not like the same and more of the i'm doing more kind. Will she ever get it? Maybe not.. Just feel that i'm not happy already. Cant i get it back? i wish i can but it's been so long.. i really really want to. Well, guess i'll just have to bear with it. In the end, my mind is just about her..

My name is stupid and hurting you is my game.. Why are things just so rough this days? I didnt even feel that you enjoyed the time i spent with you. More like you're angry.. I dunno what went wrong and it's like practically almost everything, i will be at fault.. I dont blame you but i'm just very tired that stuffs keep coming at mi, making things worse and worse. I tried to do alot of things to cheer you up or brighten your day but it never ended great.. i'll just be in a postion to be stupid and get scolded again. Seems like i brought you alot of trouble.. disturbing you, irritating you, making you moodless, making you mad, making you sad, making you sleep so late, making you fat and troubling you. I'm just so troublesome am i? Maybe i shouldnt have gone to see you this few days.. Might save your life, energy and breathe on a scumbag like mi? Guess you wuldnt want to meet mi or talk to mi for the next few dunno how many days? i'll just emo alone. Goodness sake for crying out loud.. i'm just a loser.. Never important in your life. Brought you hurt, pain, sadness and unhappiness.. Fuck mi for wanting to be a better man when i'm not even a good friend! Can we ever go back to where we last enjoyed ourselves? i wonder?

Just so shiity.. why do i feel so weak? i want myself to know that i wont let myself lose you so easily.. but, sometimes it's just quite simple for mi to see the reality. i'm just inferior.. looks, brains, money.. There's sure some guy that's better than mi out there. Just cant help but compare and i got nothing to show.. whatever it is, i just doesnt make mi feel great. im getting aliitle paranoid maybe.. im just scared of losing you. But no matter what, i dont care what's gonna befall mi. i only want to make myself a better person, a better guy and that's all i want for now.. Because i really need you to see who i really am. Not some guy with brains or looks or money.. sorry for not giving you the best this few days. on my stupid streak again..

It's just sucks to make you sad, angry or no mood.. Haix, why am i always being so stupid? Say stuffs before i think, being slow and stupid. I'm sorry for treating you like this.. I dunno, but it's just some random stupidness that came out of mi. Seeing you so angry, attitude and moody.. It's like i can go bang the wall a million times until i bleed like hell or it's just the pain that i feel like jumping off the building (not that i will). And when you dont forgive mi, i just dunno what to do but just curse myself or just meditate on my stupidness. I wished that this stupidness dont always come when ur period is nearing. If not, im so screwed. But the thing is, i just want to see you more and talk to you after that. Because, i lost that amount of time needed to bring you happiness and love. So, i just wanna makeup to it. haix.. Cant get to see you tml. Guess you still have alittle resentment on what i said.. i deserve to get slap *pak*