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I've reflected on my way home and i came to a point that i feel i should continue to love you, or love u even greater. You know why? Because after whatever wrongs i did to you and promises that i've broken, the more i should love you as i have a responsibility in it and i want to be a part in your life. I'm serious for the relationship we are in and it's not some 'come and go' sort of thing and i'm ready to give you my commitment, to take care of you for the rest of my life and never leave you. And i finally see why i cant put u down, it's because i want to be responsible for you and put your future in mine. Just now was one of the worst times of my life because i really made you hate mi and i feel so disappointed, so full of hate for myself, so regretful to cost you this hurt and im really afraid of not seeing you again. I wasnt really thinking at that point in time to stop you. i admit it's stupid of mi but i will live with it as a guilt. Well, the scar is there and i really hope to mend it and regain your trust. However, i will not let it be something you think in the next 10 years and you start to regret. I really meant every word i said to you on the bed, about how i'm gonna treat you, love you and marry you. I speak nothing more but the truth, not some sweet talk or plainless talk. I will definetly prove to you that i'm worth it and you can really rest your heart on mi. And not because of this mistake, i will leave you or even love you less. I will wait for you no matter what outcome it may be, may it be mi or someone else in future you will be with, i will always remember this as something i did terribly wrong and i will not regret that i loved you all my life. I will endlessly continue to shower you with love and will never give up until you no longer hate mi and start to trust mi again. And i dont think of you so lowly ok, i always looked up to you and always worship you like some Goddess, so please! i respect you alot.. i really do love you for who you are and not what you look like or for that. i really really love you, no one can take your place and my heart will never change.. i will love you very deeply from nightfall to dawn to dusk. So feel my heart, you are the one that i loved most! Right now all i can think is whether i can see you again and whether i can bring you the happiness you have always been looking for. Im sorry for breaking your promise and this will be the very last time.. I'll do anything just to prove to you that i'm a better guy and you can put your heart down on mi. I've made a grave mistake but i seriously want you to forgive mi.. To see you so hurt, troubled and confused, im just very guilty. And worse of all, u hate mi. i really cant do much to apologise but to think of it, my heart still aches. I failed. Made you disappointed in mi. I believe you have second thoughts about mi right now but everything about mi remains unchanged. My love for you, my feelings, my confessions, my promises will still be there. I promise you, i will definately be a better guy!

I really want to be a better man, somehow i feel i can treat u even better. Haha. It got mi thinking that for whatever u are in the past or have been through, i just want to work on your future and hopefully help u forget and take away the painful memories. The past is history alright.. I've always been saying, you are a amazing girl and you never fail to take my heart away. Well, u ain't no bad girl or some lousy person alright. In my eyes, you are a strong and independent girl. And now, i can only say that i loved you even more!

Hmmm.. have been thinking on the way home just now. Since, tml will be the day u either get happy or sad, i felt that i should make it a great day for u.. At least it wont affect u that much when u become sad and i know i tried my best. Well, although i cant do much or anything, i really hope that at least u know i care and im always there when u need mi. Hearing how u been through, what u feel i just cant imagine u being more hurt. It's not like this love story of urs is going to end, so dont give up. It is the start of your story because it is where u pick urself up and start it anew. Well, i know it's harder said than done but i really don't want to see u get hurt anymore. For all the pain, sorrows and emo-ness, i dont think u deserve all that. Even if the answer isnt what u want to hear, im glad u reached ur conciousness. What happened has been the past and no matter what u need to move on. Dont worry, i wont leave u. But, i will still be loving you as always =)

The way I blush when I think of you,
The way I smile when I remember your words..
The way I almost wanna pass out when someone mentions you.
The way I wanna go to bed early,
Just so I can dream of you.

The way I wanna hold your hand,
The way I do stupid stuffs to make u smile..
The way I wish I shared every class and attachment with you,
The way my heart beats faster..
And the way I feel when I imagine you with me.

I love the way I can talk to you.. And say what's on my mind. I never have to look away.. Or keep a thing inside. Tears fill my eyes when you're not around, or when you just don't care. But I know in my heart you will do what's right.. Material things will never matter.. As long as I have you. You make every day that passes so much easier to get through.. My worries disappear when you're around.No thoughts of pain or doubt.. I love you for everything that you are. Not what you promise to be.. I know you can't see why or how.. You're the most important thing to me.

I dont know why i'm thinking about this right now? Just a swing of emotions. i wanna tell u just how much i love you.. i just feel like saying it, feel like expressing it, feel like giving it to you. Well, i just scared of losing you. Really very scared.. I always wanted to be by your side, wanted to be laughing away with you, wanted to spend all the happy moments with you. But, somehow, i feel my position is threatened. I might not be at the top right now or i dont even know where it is also. I find myself unknown to you. Seriously, u changed.. You've become so precautious and i really dont know how to approach you. Certain things i do in the past seemed to be provoking you right now and i just dont understand.. It's like a thought of asking where are u can be seemed like an act of restriction. It wasnt so in the past, it's just hard for mi to see u go through this. After all, i dont know what's going through your mind. I have to be careful of what i can say to the point that i cant show my concern. But, i do really hope that u will be better and no matter what or how u treat mi, i'll always be the same. I love you, that's all i can say =)

What's wrong with being concern? Cant seem to know why.. it seems as though i'm a possesive freak. Am i? Why when problems other people caused bring mi in and affects mi by how they affect u? Why am i always the one who picks up the mess and moves along with it? Cant u see where i'm in right now, where my position should be? After that day, i've been sad and now this again? i cant stand it. i'll always be the one who needs to understand you.. But do u? it's almost as if i lost you already. Argh, hate what's going through in my mind. Fuck you forbes!

Just want to say i'm sorry.. You get mad the whole night. Just sucks alright.. I get the picture what u want to tell mi and i admit i'm stupid enough to spend ok. i got nothing to say.. Come to think of it, i regretted buying it because it brought nothing but trouble. And why did i let some stupid bag let it get over us? How stupid can i be? i think i'll never do anything like that again. Like all the trouble and money to see u get mad only. Sorry, i learn my lesson. U dont deserve this. Sian, you sure wont reply or talk to mi tml =(