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Seems to be futile.. Is it understood or is it something else? keeping on to that tiny little faith.. tell mi where do i start? Do i look like some commodity or am i a jewel? Don't push me away. Don't leave me alone. Don't use me. Don't go!

How do I get close, a moment of her time just seems impossible to me.. It’s hard to find the words. Cause, I can’t keep on feeling the way I do.. I can’t keep on, hiding my heart from you. I got to say something before, someone else comes through.. I can’t keep on loving you, from a distance. She’s always on my mind, there’s no room left for thinking.. I’m tired of waiting, slowly fading.. It needs to happen now. Cause i’m running out of time, and I feel this ship is sinking. The doors are closing and I am frozen.. I need her around. I can't hide it.. But, that's not going to happen. I know it's hard to get back the things in the past.. Regrets.

Lifelong mistake that i've ever made.. Childish and foolish. What i did, was stupid.. But it's all for you. Not mi, not us.. I don't get it. Are you happy?

It all comes to a stand still now.. Everything's done and now is time. The days of endless pursing of contentment, happiness, surprise and waiting for someone.. Stripped of dignity, pride, selflessness, commitment, priority and giving.. I lay myself out. Did the best i can ever possibly do.. As i always tried. Ignoring all the nags from all round.. It all matters for a second. And then, i know.. Struck by the ever heavy weight of inferiority, judgement, jealousy, bitterness and longing. i hide it.. The posture, actions, conversations and comparity. I see it..

My mind hit by many rebounds.. Speeding through the island, to get as much happy-saving tokens. And i admit, a few sticks and half bottle to accompany me was just enough.. for one night.

It's not my stage now, no more fairy tale princess, tiaras, glass slippers and her face. It's what the best awaits.. Letting go.

It gets me thinking.. For feelings with attachment, it dwells within. I guess i ought to change my mind.. Somehow you think that it's right, but in fact it's wrong. I cant really tell which side but now maybe i'll make it up. I don't wish to regret if it begets me in future. I know it's my vulnerability.. For the things in the past and for those to come, i don't know what i'll be in for. Helping others but i can't help myself.. I'll throw this hope; this little wish. Cause i know i can't pick up and go back again.. Things that are lost are not meant to be found. And there's only future, no hope behind.. So i really wish upon the shooting star on my birthday. If only it came through..

CUI.. All i can say. It's all in the mind actually.. Glad that it's over and thankful that i didn't fall out. Now full of bruises, rash and cuts. It was fun though, although i just cant wait to get home. On the night of stars, i chance upon a shooting star.. Great is the moon, duty was just reflection. Getting lost and wandering in the abyss of twinkers.. All thoughts come to you. Well, a letter of tears just said it all.. The 21st was unexpected. Rained like hypos and elephants and slept in the freezing mud.. A group of guards surrounded mi at midnight, caught me when i was sleeping. It was memorable, with my buddies, my rifle and me.

I'll appreciate everything that i have and love.. Not that i didn't but i straightened up. All i want to say is, i still do..

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