Friday, September 05, 2008
Never to understand.. This feeling. Jealousy. Came and take away certain things.. My most valued feelings. I'm just insecure that it will take her away from mi.. yet again, it chanced upon mi.. or should i say it's always there? Once it came, i was sad. Twice it came, i was devastated. now, it is thrice.. What should i feel? Angry? It's worse to be around it.. hear it. Even greater when u see it.. Well, i've been through all that. Right now, i came just feel it beside mi and i cant do anything about it.. how should i endure? Closing my eyes even prompted mi to pretend to hide it. Can i carry on bearing this pain? It just hurts.. I'm very scared that in the end, it will take her away. She's all that matters to mi.. I know it wont go away.. But at least let mi have some hope that it will disappear. Argh~ Jealousy is such a bitch.