Friday, November 02, 2007
let mi post the last poem about how i feel:
I lay wishing I could fall fast asleep..
but awake thinking of you my mind wants to keep.
I'm so tired that I can't think clearly..
but all I know is that I love you dearly.
I feel I got myself into such a big mess,
all because the truth I chose to confess.
Everything just got ten times harder,
from this I hope to only grow stronger..
These sorry words I said so many times,
so much that they all fit into cheesy rhymes.
I feel my shame I put on a display post,
so you all will know why I hurt the most.
You are the one I wanted for so long,
by loving you am I the one who's wrong?
My true feelings I somehow kept displayed,
to love you I was never ever ashamed..
I look out the window and can't see the stars,
then I look at my heart and can see all my scars.
For some reason my heart refuses to let go..
of a love I will never get to know.
ok.. there goes the last straw of my feelings. though, i do have more things to pen down.. but, best is to keep it to myself.. cause no matter what, nothing's gonna change. i made up my mind.. i wont be like this anymore.. its just so hard to fill in this gap.. im still waiting for her to tell mi how she feels. but, seems like she won't.. she hates mi? are we still best friends? or has it turned us into strangers? so i guess, things won't be the same anymore.. enough of waiting. so tired..