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For you.. I’d melt the stars, and mix them in the little well.. that holds the colors of my soul. My heart would paint the world for you.. As long as you let me swim, an inch inside your mind.. If you want a picture to hang upon your wall, I could create for you: a work of art.. That would never let you frown. Those who know will say it’s true, I could get acrylics out again.. If you asked me to. A canvas is not enough to show you the world I see.. When I look into your eyes. I’d much prefer to drop some words.. Cascading from a pen, that lies upon my heart.

If one day, you wished to hold the moon within your hands.. I’d fly across the galaxy and drag it glowing back. Just so it'd make stardrops in your eyes to light your smiling face.. If you asked me to. I’d like to sit upon a cloud and feel the rays with you; To watch the night chase the day and share with you the stars.. We’d watch those glories, you and me.. When they're falling from the sky..

I’d like to feel your heart, beat against my own.. I’d sing to you the afternoon.. Light the shadows in the dark.. I’d play for you: a tune from the piano.. Just to touch your skin…If you asked me to. I’d give you everything I am and own.. If you asked me to.

I wish that I could write the words of all the things I feel.. But painting you this picture.. is all that I can do.

Our paths will always be parallel...

I see the moonlight and your presence isn't there.. I watch the cars go by and never see you.. I lay and wait but you never seem to call. This is all stuff I never want at all. I could never see a me without you.. I just don't think I'd know what I would do. It would be like in the movies.. Where the guy just dies for you. I just couldn't handle being here. Without you by my side.. You are the one that makes me smile.. Each and every time. My life is so amazing when you are always near.. That is the way I want it. Just never without you here..I could sit here and go on without ever giving up. For giving up was never an option and should never be.. You are the only one I want, the only one I wanna see. I think and wonder just what am i going to do. But everything I think about just leads back to you.. Your just so deep in my mind and it's good to know your there.. Cause I would do anything to make sure we just get there. what if?

misery, it seems as simple as that. it seems to feel tremendous, but it is deceptive. At any time, it can twist itself to thing that we all hate most. It can strike at any time, unknowing when it seems to be going great as if it could never end.

pain, when it strikes, it hurts. Hurts so much that it can change a person. From one that took it for granted to someone who despises it. They may not seem like the same person anymore. When it strikes, they will feel it.

torment, when it hurts, it will hurt for so long. It may seem like they will never feel right again. It will consume the abuser from the inside out until there is nothing left to destroy. At that time, it may be too late; it has done its task.

contentment, when it does not create misery, create pain or create torment, it will feel tremendous, it will never end, you will feel right. It will never deceive you. It will never change you. It will never destroy you.

forbes.. You love her, so much that no one knows. You wait, wait for the perfect moment, but it never comes. And she doesn't know... she will never know. But you must, must tell her everything. You wait and wait again for that moment. And she still doesn't know. You watch from behind, and see her with everyone she loves, wishing that only you are the person she is with. Then the time comes. What to do? you ask yourself. Then it comes out, all of your feelings. And she still takes no regard. You only wish that she were with you, and not him. And you fear that you will always be alone. You wait, wait for that moment once again that someday someone will hear you... and reply. some may never understand..

As soon as the sun hits my face.. She steps into my head. A disease that has no cure.. A feeling that can't be comprehended.. You smile, you walk different, you glow different. It's her, like a star you just want to pick her out of the sky and stare at her for all eternity.. Together never apart, but apart she does not leave u. It's not that easy.. She may be a world away. Yet she still takes refugee in my heart. A feeling that can't be comprehended.. i'm an addict now, it all feels like nirvana.. A different level a different place. and we can never be..

this emptiness is hard to swallow.. all alone and feeling hollow. Darkness won since it began, but I am no longer its biggest fan.. try to sneak it out of my life, but then it somehow causes strife. when it leaves it causes pain.. until I am left longing for it again. Darkness stares into my eyes, if I fall again it'll be no surprise.. then I will love until it makes me hate, but once again it will return to be my fate.. something that will never be.


Is it me? Who is weighing too much meaning.. To words spoken?And is it me.. Who is longing too much. To simple touches? Is it me? Who is searching too much for that reflection.. In your eyes?Or is it me? Who has just fallen too deep?

really disappointed in myself.. how come? i dont have the answers too...

Impossible? why isit so? you never tell mi, just left mi hanging..

em evol ot mees t'nod uoy tub ,devol eb ot tnaw I
noititeper taht nihtiw rednaw i
truh m'i fi neve ,deracs m'i fi neve taht ;rewsna eno dnuof i
evol i ohw nosrep eht ot 'uoy evol i' yas nac i

?em evol ton ro ?em evol uoy oD
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
hsiw i woh rettam oN
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
enoyna yb elbaegnachnu thurt eht si uoy gnivolym fo tcaf eht ylno esuaceb dna ,thgir s'tahT

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to u, there’s something that I must tell u
em evol ot mees t'nod uoy tub ,devol eb ot tnaw I
I wander within that repetition.. I found one answer that even if I’m scared
evol i ohw nosrep eht ot 'uoy evol i' yas nac i ,truh m'i fi neve
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words.. But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love


Do u feel like a man, when u'r push around.. Do you feel better now as i fall to the ground.. Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end.. as the lies crumble down, a new life i will find.

enslaved by your moods, hardened by your attitude, humbled by your appearence.. what more to expect?

Raindrops on this one last page goodbye, blur every line that led me to you, streaks of blue crowd around, ink stain tears.. Of my best days. I don't mind if you stay - You were everything I ever wanted. Some day, when I can make it through, I'll realize, it was the right thing to do, even though we were making it, I always knew I'd never be enough.. Was it supposed to be this hard? Is it supposed to take this long to let you go? Spotlights dance across every whispered hour I spent alone, grains of sand in hourglass dreams, falling through, a see-through countdown, to turn around and slip away again.. Teardrops on this page goodbye, blur the words I always wanted to tell you.. But you never had the time.

.ytilaer nettogrof ev'i, si hturt ehT
,syad emoselbuort eseht ni pu dexim
,em morf uoy llet t'nac i
.yartsa gnillaf m'i

,smaerd ym morf kcab ylf ot deen I
,stnemom lufrednow esoht
.em dna uoy fo gnitsisnoc

.thgir s'tahT
,eno eht erew uoy kniht ot desu i
,nekatsim saw i tub
.noteleks a si evol ruo

.kcab em sevol ehs fi eno eht ylno s'ehs

gave more than anyone could ever give..

wOrLd iS cRueL, LoVe iS bLinD. LoSt iN sAdnEsS, BluR In miND. HeArT iS bRoKeN, fLaMe hAd DiEd. TiMe HaS pAsSeD bUt wHy.. sTiLL nOt mInE.. forbes forbes, stuck between reality and imagination. so simple, yet so complicated.. get out of it.

heyx, you know you drive me crazy, one look puts the rhythm in my hand. Still I'll never understand why you hang around, I see what's going down. A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect, every action in this world will bear a consequence, if you wade around forever you will surely drown, I see what's going down. i finally had enough..

it turns out that i need to be mature.. i am sorry, forbes. i'll move on.. its just hard, seems to mi like a 1000 words...

downing the 8th.. watever it is, im going to be num and keep it to myself. it really bothers mi when u go all out just to do a simple act and get nothing out of it.. im wrong to think that, something will come out of it.. if u got feelings, u wun want it to be just mutual.. u expect something. anyway, that's just plain naive of mi. i need to grow up.. Fuck! im such a kid. its so wrong to begain with..

no more sweet nothings.. no more good old longings.. no more you. is that how it should be?

I dont care if it hurts.. I want to have control. I want a perfect body.. I want a perfect soul. I want you to notice.. When Im not around. What the hell am I doing here? I dont belong here.

All that i've done.. seems so insignificant. Where's the results? where's the harvest? well, it doesn't answer any of it.. times that i've cried. Has it made mi a pussy? Guess, i am huh?