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BiG aNnouCemEnt~
tHis wiLL mOst liKely bE tHe lAst pOst oF tHis bLog.. i'M nOt gOnNa bLog hEre anyMoRe.. i'LL cOntiNue tO bLog, bUt nOt hEre.. tHis blOg hAs sErved it'S pUrpOse aNd it'S tiMe tO giVe it a cLose.

it'S jUst so cOincidEntal thAt i fOund a gReat cHap wHo is oN tHe sAme bOat aS mi.. yOu n i.. sO mUch iN cOmMon.. sO mUch pAin wE hAd to eNduRe.. sO mUch efFort wE gAve. Alas, hEre we aRe.. bOth tAken fOr gRanted oR siMply nOt aPpreCiated.. wE live a sAd liFe.. neGlected oR bAsicAlly usEd bY tHem.. bOth oUr toPmOst priOritiEs wEre oN tHem iNsteAd oF oUrsElvEs.. yEt, wE gAve thEm mOre tHan wAt tHey gAve uS bAck.. wE tRied vEry hArd aNd oUr bEst, bOth u aNd i.. but it stiLL dOesn't cHanGed a tHing oR hAd an iMpaCt.. mOre liKe it'S wAsted.. aWww.. it'S rEally wOndErful tO kNow u sHare tHe sAme pRobLem aNd fEelinGs liKe mi.. wE shOuld hAve a cUp oF tEa nExt tiMe rOund.. it'S likE bEcOz of aLL tHeSe tHat wE sHaRe a mUtuAl uNdErstAndiNg oF oNe aNotHer.. hOpe tO sEe u sOon.. my pAl.

i tHink i kNow wHerE i stAnd bEfoRe uR eyEs nOw.. tHe wAy u'R dOing tHese tO mi.. i hOpe tHat tHe rEasOn bEhiNd tHese wOuld rEally bE uR bEst dEciSiOn.. i wEren't blAme u fOr anYtHing.. mAybe it'S my fAult tHat u fElt thiS wAy.. im a pEst ritE? alWays cliNging oNto u.. wEll, u hAve jUst kiLLed tHe bUg.

LaSt pOem i cAn cOme oUt wiTh:
So many words I want to say
So strong in my heart is my love
And so hard to let you go away
My heart, my soul; you – my dove
So many words I want to spell
Only three words I can do: « I love you »
in my heart dwell
And in my soul and mind; you
Being together and hoping to be With you
a dream, may it come true?
Wishing well all time for you and me
That one day, I would better live with you
And then so many things I wish to do
And all what my heart wishes is you
And before all that, so nice is true
To have and be such LOVE – you knew
To whom my very affection is devouted
To whom my life would indeed have no sense
If once I would find her again on the fence
To reveal her deep emotions so seen offended
This and then it could be our anticipated DESTINY
To live and have so MAY troubles in getting our life
And then my FATE to foresee my LOVE to you for eternity
Living and surviving even if stabed with a keen knife

gOod bYe`

fEeling qUite dEpreSsed at tHe mOmeNt.. i rEally kiNda fEel tHat u'r nOt tReatiNg mi liKe wE uSed tO.. tHe tYpe tHat u dOn't wAnNa tAlk to mi attitUde.. i'Ve tRied mY bEst.. uNfOrtUnatEly, tHere's nO cHance.. iTs liKe yOu r alWays tAlkiNg tO sOmeoNe elSe oR yOu'r tOo bUsy witH tHings.. i rEally hOpe tO gO bAck tO tHe tiMe wHerebY wE wEre mUch mOre clOse.. nOw, itS liKe we'r stRanGers..

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When the tears fall down my face
They aren’t mostly happy ones-they are tears of sadness
They are tears of a heart in loneliness
They are tears of a life of just wanting that “one” person to be the only one and hope they feel the same too
They are tears of wondering if there are disappointments to come

When the tears fall down they are heavy
not soft, but they flow as a river
and the sniffing, and emotions become uncontrollable
And I try to be strong for that one
But that one doesn’t know how much pain it is
When she walks away and she is already so far away

The tears that fall down
Leave my eyes red, my face gloomy and leave me as being sick
My body falls down and I am in agony
The tears that fall down
Never stop, and I wonder if they ever will
Even if I walk away to save myself
I don’t think they will stop, but perhaps in time, I will be better

The tears that fall down my face now
I don’t like and I can’t do anything about them
But walk away because these are too heavy
For me to wipe away anymore

Sorry for being me
Sorry for you cannot see
Sorry for just being what you don't want me to be
Sorry for thinking of something full of glee
Sorry for giving you all you asked from me
Sorry for saying sorry, but that is me, and l can see, that you will be you, and leave me, to be, sorry again
until the bitter end


bEen sO dAmn sHag latEly.. bOred oF wOrkiNg n oVer-eXhaustiNg my bOdy. lUckily mY bRo tOld mi tHat mY livEr is stiLL wOrkiNg pRoperLy.. pHew~ cAnt eAt tOo mUch aNimOre.. fElt liKe puKing eAch tiMe & pAin alWayz sEts in. wAt a bOthEr!

i fElt rUde yEsterdAy.. sHouldn't hAve sAid thOse wOrds tO tHat gAl. im kiNda in a cRanky stAte tHen.. i hAven't fiNd my sAnity yEt. mAybe sHe tHinks tHat im mAd at hEr bUt i'm nOt.. i hOpe sHe dOesn't gEt hUrt, or else i'm tO bLame. wOrst if it didN't haVE an eFfect oN hEr..

bEen rEally tryinG hard lAtely.. itS tOugh & im sO tiRed..

All these feelings deep in my heart
Cant handle this its tearing me apart
Its all to much my heart is broken
A painful regret with the words I’ve spoken

I need you now more than ever
And our bond I don’t want to sever
You’re the one I need most the one I love dear
I’ve hurt you you’ve hurt me im running from this fear

At night I lie thinking of you
And all the things we’ve been through
I did what I needed to do
Now I see it wasn’t good for me or you

I’ve been here for you all of these years
Even when buried in my own sadness and fears
I’ve tried so hard to give you happiness and love
But when I reached out I felt I got a shove...

The light went dim in the street of hate
Another night falls It`s your fate
Stage is set
come see the show
Nail them up
and let the blood flow
I hate my hate
hate is flown away
I hate my hate
why would you go away
I hate my hate
please stay
Heal our physic wounds with fear
let our kin dissapear
The show is over
it`s time to go home
Kill your children
let the blood flow
I hate my hate
the endless stain
I hate my hate
ease the pain
I hate my hate
hate is me

There just only one thing that can't be change
Love is it
hate can't change it
but they can be the same
together
companion
but never the same
Hate
once loved
never did love
hurt
never did hate
once with pain
hate exist indeed
Love
can't be alone
challenges are not seen
in love without a spice of hate
hate a little
love a lot
take emotions with fear
hate fear
love conquers all they say
what to conquer without hate
what to fear without hate
Hate!
then alas Love!
Hate turns to Love
Love to Hate
nothing but false for love stay as it is!

ThEre is a vAst ocEan sEpErAting us... wE arE tWo pEoPle toO fAr aPart... i dO nOt wiSh tO mAke a fUsS... bUt u'vE stOlen, a piEce oF my hEart...


cHamb! tml's my piAno eXam.. Damn it! fEeling jittEry riGht nOw.. cUrRently, nOt in tHe bEst oF mOods.. siAnz.. eVerytHing i cHeriShed is sHortliVed.. oH wEll.. gOttA hAng oN~ hOpe i dOn't bReakdOwn.. wiLL aN anGel sAve mi pls` all i aSked fOr is hAppiNess ^_^*

pOst aGain in dUe tiMe...

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