Friday, September 08, 2006
had a hard time sleeping last night.. im so silly.. i know the odds, yet i still went with it. i know something like that will happend, least to know that there is a glimmer of hope.. pouring out my heart was initially what i thought would make me feel better, nevertheless i think it was the wrong move.. what was i thinking? damn foolish i must say.. all along, i knew that it is impossible but this stupid self of mine was stubborn to do it.. now i dread it so much.. it had ruined everything.. things wouldn't be the same i guessed.. i should've stop back then, i thinked too much and digressed.. well, just as expected.. another blow to my self-esteem. i'll never blame u.. i think its myself that takes the blame.. if u r reading this.. im sorry. i just have to do it.. its just a matter of time.